Reflection

Looking back on my life I can truly see where God has ordained and planned things out for me. He often puts desires in our hearts (according to his word) and for that I am so grateful. As I was reading through my own journals I came across something I wrote and am amazed as I compare that entry to where I am today.

9/2/2009
School is starting now and since I’ve transferred from a P.G and am now at UMD, everything is sooo different! The school is much bigger and just seems a bit over whelming for now. There are other things on top of this that I have on my mind and am trying not to let these things stress me out. I know God doesn’t want me to worry and I’m just trying to keep in my grasp the fact that all I have to do is rely on him for EVERYTHING . I know we all go through this. Here are some scriptures that are helping me to cope with everything and I really don’t want to just read them, but actually ingest them and believe.

(Some time after the exerpt above)
I’ve experienced much of what I wanted. I was worried because the school (University of Maryland) is so big and everything was so new to me. However, as with most new things in life, they take time getting used to. I made a 3.5 this semester which qualified me for the Dean’s list! Never in my life would I have thought I could do this. I’ve always wanted to and knew I had it in me, but didn’t know that it would actually transpire. I have gotten accepted into the study abroad program in Italy through my school and will be doing so this fall.
As I read what I wrote and as I remember how I felt at that time in my life I compare it to what actually happened and life doesn’t seem so scary after all especially when you have God right there with you. There is no point in worrying about your future because once He opens a door for you, no one can shut it and He will provide. So I am going to continue to trust him.
I am amazed at how He works things out for the good of those who love him. There is a reason and a purpose for why he puts certain things on or hearts. There is a reason why he gave me the desire to come to Italy and I pray that the purpose be not in vain, but that all things would be of benefit to his plan.